I’ve been thinking all this week about situations, decisions, outcomes, and what I expect from myself. As you can imagine, that’s a lot of thinking (and is still ongoing). Sometimes it’s funny how things work (and sometimes funny means devastating). There are days I have to laugh to keep from crying or letting a few cuss words slip (I don’t cuss, but under extreme duress, you’ll never know what will come out of your mouth – ask Peter).
Now, for the extra-churchy folks, this entry may not be for you. You know who you are – the one that’s “so spiritual and heavenly that you’re not a bit of earthly good,” as my grandmother says. If you’re still reading, you’ve been warned...
Have you ever thought about events in your life and wished there were some things you could change, but then you wonder what would’ve been affected and how that would impact you now? Well, I’ll be the honest one and admit it. It makes me think about the tagged “Prodigal Son” story in the Bible (Luke 15:11-32) and how the son, who was probably extremely talented, gifted, and full of promise wanted and received too much, too soon. He was so eager to start his life of freedom that he neglected to count the costs and consequences for his actions. He just knew that he wanted something more than what he was currently receiving.
I looked at my own life, the folly of some of the decisions I’ve made, and the consequences (some still affect me today). What if I had been more patient in my career choices? What if I had been more patient in my family life? What if I had been more honest about how things wore on my heart? What if I had tempered my ambitions? The one trait the young man in the story and I shared was lacking patience. His object lesson came by losing everything and being humbled to a point where he just wanted to serve alongside his father’s servants – just so he could have food and shelter. My object lesson on lack of patience has been my son and things surrounding him. I’ve been able to slow down, see the bigger picture, and make better decisions. However, like a quarterback that’s thrown a pick-six, there are some things in my life I want a do-over – and unlike the quarterback, there are times when God does allow a do-over.
I’m thankful that God isn’t like us in the regard that we shut down people and opportunities, while God gives us multiple opportunities. It may not be the exact same scenario, but when another opportunity is presented, it’s wise to utilize it to the fullest.
MB